Aug 13, 2008

The Rock Wall

We went into town today. Had some errands to do and since we are down to one vehicle all of us went. The starter in the van is on the brink of dying. Our normal mechanic is so busy he hasn't even looked at the transmission of our other car so Sean called another mechanic that was recommended to us. He had an opening at 1pm so we decided to make a day of it. Grabbed lunch and headed to the park for a picnic and then the kids played for 2 hours. Thankfully the mechanic was just down the street so Sean dropped the van off and met up with us at the park.
While sitting and enjoying the cool breeze I watched Kristofer as he tried to climb the rock wall. Two days ago while climbing up our cabinets he pulled his groin muscle. Yesterday he was barely able to walk. So watching him today I was nervous for him. I tried to tell him to get down but he was determined.
He kept trying and despite his injury he did it. As I watched him (which I am actually writing this as he is doing it-just happened to have a pen and paper w/me today)I have to admire his courage. He didn't let his pain or injury stop him from climbing that obstacle. I can tell he was in a great deal of pain, he kept pausing and he would hold his leg but up he went.
God showed me something today, actually a few things but the other deserves it's own post. Sometimes we face obstacles and we have a choice. We can either grit our teeth through the pain and move over it or we can quit. Through this depression I've been battling, I have not even had the will power to even attempt to face some of the obstacles I now know I have to live with (knee problems). But as I watched Kristofer grit his teeth and climb up and over the rock wall I realized that I just have to grit my teeth on the days I don't even want to get out of bed. On the days I know I have to do things when I just want to stay in my room I have to remember that God is with me and He will see me through the day.
I do have to share, I am doing better. I am pleased to say I have been spending more time out of my room than I have in the last 8 months. But there are days when I just don't want to get out of bed. Today was a day I wanted to just stay in bed and stay in my room and not deal with things. But I had to face the day and God is giving me strength to do so.

1 comment:

Michele said...

I am gritting my teeth- maybe grinding them down- over the obtstacles right now
Love you and thanks